Personal update? Yes? Maybe? No? I’ll do it anyway.
The cats are fine and healthy! Suki has her special ways in letting us know that the litterbox needs to be cleaned right now and not tonight or tomorrow! Yes, we’re procrastinators. Hiro is fine as well. We still find some fleas now and then, that’s all I’m going to say, because I don’t want to jinx it — Yes, I believe in that.
I cleaned out my inbox, I had around 720 unread mails from blogs I need to read. I’m sorry if I didn’t read all of them. You have to admit 720 is a lot. I used to read blogs on a daily basis, but I’ve gotten lazy. I’m also still trying to find back my motivation and inspiration. But don’t worry, I got a few nice reviews posted next week or so.
Anyway, A bit of an update about my life. I don’t know if I mentioned it in my earlier personal update what I was going to do with my future, school wise, studies, anything. I had a head-decision and a heart-decision.
Head – Study Animal Management
Heart – Study Feline Behavior
Problems: My job contract ends in November. Animal Management is done in college, which means I’ll get some sort of loan from the government which I don’t have to pay back if I pass everything and get my diploma. It’s also full-time.
Feline behavior is further away (in need of driver license), only requires 8 days of class during the period. Could be done next to a job, but starts in January. Pretty expensive, but probably cheaper over time compared to Animal Management.
Last Thursday I went to college to register for Animal Management. Even though I didn’t have my diploma from my previous study because I was unable to pass the German exam. In fact, I passed the exam for 90%. I only failed on the reading part which I have to retake somewhere in September.
The teacher at the school on Thursday told me that it’s a rule and a law that they need to see a diploma before the first of September. This is impossible as my previous school starts in the first week of September (after the first). And even if I had a diploma I had to take three admission/allowance exams to show that I can do Animal Management. This is because I haven’t done any other animal related studies. Those three tests would be math, chemistry and physics. I suck at all three. They told me I could do a summer study for those subjects, but I know myself. Math is mission impossible for me. I dropped those subjects for a reason in high school, okay.
Anyway, this means animal management isn’t (probably) an option… Is it what I really wanted? No. But everyone (I mean almost everyone around me except my boyfriend) suggests I do a study that is higher than the study I have done now. Why? Because people want to see good diplomas when you want/need a job. So now everyone is trying to encourage me and do something else. Do I want to spend money on a study I don’t like? Hell no! So it’s difficult, cause there isn’t much else I like. And every time someone suggest a study like journalism, I caught myself telling little lies as reasons why I don’t want to do it, or can’t do it.
So my big dream? Feline behavior. I don’t know if I’m going to do it, how I’m going to do it and all that stuff. But it’s a goal. Even if it’s small or perhaps impossible. But so far everyone (except my boyfriend) has laughed at me when I tell them I want to study feline behavior. My coworkers don’t get it, my friends won’t understand and think it’s a bad decision for the future.
In other words: Most people are demotivating me.
A long time back I was also thinking about hanging up little flyers here at the stores. For people who have issues with their cat(s) and need a bit of help with them. Behavior wise mostly and for free. Maybe this is a good idea to get some experience? I just don’t know what to put on that flyer. I don’t know if I can do it. I’m doubting myself a lot and I have trouble getting out of my comfort zone and do whatever the fuck I want to do. (did I swear? Sorry!)